A story about the background of my desire to be circumcised, the way to realize this desire and what will happen afterwards.

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Friday 1 January 2010

How it all started: A curious boy grows up

The first view

I learned to read when I was 4 or 5 years old, from pure curiosity.  That means me parents, always trying to answer my questions the best they could and without impatience, could have some relief by putting informative books in my hands. 

It must have been extra relieving for them to be able to hand me a book about where babies come from! This was a very educational and serious book, with illustrations so realistic and graphic that you almost wanted to touch them. One thing I still remember very vividly from this book is the pictures of male genitalia. Today I realize this must have been a translated American book, because there was just one illustration showing an intact penis, and it was specially mentioned that "all other pictures shows the penis without a foreskin". The view of these circumcised penises really fascinated me - I liked them far better than the uncircumcised one - and was the main reason to why this book got rather worn-out with many loose pages.

I will never forget this fascination, which I instinctively felt I should keep secret, and I often picked out the book to enjoy it when I was alone at home.

A tight foreskin 

As many other boys, I had foreskin that was to tight to retract. This was discovered at a regular examination by the school doctor when I was eight, an examination which I found deeply embarrassing and humiliating. It resulted in a phone call to my parents, and shortly after when I was having a bath my father showed me how I should do daily stretching exercises with my foreskin to have it loosened. Needless to say, this was very embarrassing too! 

But these exercises worked. After a couple of years I managed to retract my foreskin, which was the purpose. A quicker benefit, surely not intended, was that I very soon discovered how to masturbate. I would have learned this sooner or later anyway, but this way it happened sooner!

Learning to experience my glans

I remember very well the first time I managed to retract my foreskin. I was very glad that it finally worked, and amazed at the sight of my glans. I had never seen it before, and now it popped out, red and glossy. Most of all it was very sensitive, but nevertheless I enjoyed both the sight of it and the feeling of having it exposed. It was very exciting!

Through the years of puberty and adolescence, I kept on enjoying keeping my glans exposed and did so often. Since the foreskin at that time was quite tight, it was easy to keep it staying behind the flare of the glans, and the constant squeeze it caused just heightened the pleasure.

6 comments:

  1. The book you saw in childhood might have been
    "Show me! : a picture book of sex for children and parents", a translation of Zeig Mal! by Will McBride and Helga Fleischhauer-Hardt. I haven't seen the book,
    so don't know if it portrays mostly circumcised penises.
    The book is hard to find in the U.S. because prudish
    adults steal it from libraries and destroy it.

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  2. I wish I knew the name of the book and could find it, just to be able to see if those pictures look like I remember them.
    It's not in my parent's library anymore, and I haven't asked them about it. Maybe it was thrown away because it was so worn-out, or maybe given away to someone else who wanted to educate their children?
    I think it was very wise of my them to hand me this book - they wanted to give me correct and unbiased information - but I'm sure those prudish Americans would think they were very sinful and bad parents... ;-)

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  3. Like you my interest and journey towards circumcision started when I was about 3 or 4 years old and first saw another boys circumcised penis with his mother bathed both of us together. I instantly thought his penis looked so much better than mine but had no idea why but I was soon to find out.

    Over the years my interest in circumcision only increased and then in my early 20's I came to live in Sydney, Australia and soon realised that just about every Australian guy I saw on the beach or changing rooms was beautifully circumcised and that many Australian girls had never seen let alone touched a uncut penis.

    A couple of weeks before my 50th birthday I finally said goodbye to my foreskin in 2002 and honestly I have trouble even remembering it today, being circumcised seems so natural and nice I would never want my foreskin back every.

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  4. Hello Circumcised Aussie!
    Thanks for your comment. It's always good to hear from other circumcised men, and it's encouraging for others to know that you took the step at 50. It's never too late, is it?
    I've been cut for 19 months now, and I must say I more or less forgot my foreskin rather quickly. It's as if it's never been there, and I haven't missed it for a second!

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  5. The book would not have been Show Me! I've seen it, and it has german models, with the males uncircumcised. At least the US edition has a pair a circumcised boys to illustrate the difference. The language in the book is also far less clinical than what you describe.

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  6. First,thank you for your blog and work,

    My story begin when i was small boy 3.years.I had long,non retracted foreskin,which made infections easy.It was very eachy and irittating.Parents went with me to specialist urology surgion to inspect me,but he didnt want to do nothing just to wait till it pass.Then i heard some words Circumcise.It was in my mind sinse then.It was the way to treat my problem,i didnt know what was it,but my parents were not for it.Time passed but foreskin was not retractable.Then at.7.my father putt me in warm bath and treated me to pull the skin or the doctor would need it to cut away.I was scared of doctors and i menaged to retract it after few hours,but it was very painfull and burning sensation.After that i was unconscios aware about my penis and foreskin.When i was 9.my cousin needed to be circumcised,because of problems with foreskin.I heard the word C.again, but it was taboo to speak about it.Next year a naighbour boy needed to be relieved from paraphimosis,and he was circumcised.Again that C.word.I finaly find some sex educational book when i was 11."Everything you should know about sex"and was astonished about one topic- Circumcision..I discovered an American view on it which was good and without religious prejudices.It was simply healthy upgrading procedure for boys and men.Since then it was my hidden wish to be circed..I past through teen age with some infections on glans and foreskin,but there was no need to cut it.Finally i got courage and opinion on procedure ,then 24.In one week since the first exam by private urologyst,i made a phone call and sheduled a circumcision.Next day i was so scared and exited in the same time,but i wasnt hesitate.I wanted to change me for ever.After work i went to private ordination,Op.was freehand and i wanted radical circ,with scar one inch behind the glans and too frenulum removed.The surgeon did good job,Still after 13.years i am very satisfied and proud of my new life without a foreskin.I simply encourage all men that is better to be circumcised.
    D.

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